Well, I know one person who will probably scream at me if or when she finds out about this: my mum. Primarily because some of my stories will be starring her and what she (we) went through in the past. She’s constantly telling me to keep our past hushed from the outside world as she’s afraid that it will bring down our reputation (it’s a Chinese, or rather, Asian mentality).
My mum will not like me posting this up on the internet for the public to read, but then again, I’m not ashamed of my past. I’ve learnt that the past is exactly what it is – the past. History. Moments once upon a time. It is not the present; it does not and can not define who we are today. But, HOW we have dealt or are dealing with it is what helps shape our character. Just because one was a thief in the past doesn’t make the person a thief now, right? (Of course, assuming the person repented and is no longer stealing).
Today, I proudly share these stories as if I’m waving my own flag. It’s an entitlement to have these scars in my life. I’ve always asked God “why me, why us” when I cried myself to sleep in those dark moments. But I now believe that these experiences have made me a better & stronger version of myself today.
I can’t control my past, but I can control the actions of my present which will determine my future.
I also feel a greater calling to use my past (and present) broken encounters to help others who may be going through, or may have gone through, a similar fate as mine. Not many victims of family abuse step out into the light. It’s really viewed as a humiliating thing and somewhat a bad omen to share such private information with others.
I want to put a stop to this mentality. I want to be a vessel of God’s hope and light to the broken. I want others to feel encouraged to go through whatever struggles they may have, in the same positive manner. I want to create a community where we can inspire and motivate each other to go through life’s broken moments… because there’s hope, hope of beauty within the brokenness.
This is my ministry, and I can’t ignore the calling.
There will be tears, there will be laughter — but i hope to bring you through the ups and downs together, while it’s also a journey of healing for me. I hope this blog will help bring healing and inspiration to others sometime down the road, God willing.
Happy reading! =)
“Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart, All you who hope in the LORD.”